'I thought I might share a bit about myself. Maybe it could be helpful for someone, I have no idea. I wouldn't say that I overcame something, since it's a reccurent thing for me (well, I can never...
Yeah, I always felt this connection to water. Live by the sea - I thought. It will be nice - I thought. And god (or else) knows that it is... Until the storm starts. You know what else starts when...
System: A fatal exception has occured. Me: Great... You know what? I'm tired. *types* Format me: *Enter* System: WARNING, ALL DATA ON NON-REMOVABLE DISK ME: WILL BE LOST! Proceed with...
I'm starting to accept that I'll probably never get over some things and move on. But isn't it some kind of moving on?..
Do you ever write a thoughtful essay to someone and then you're like nah, not good enough *CTRL+A* *DEL* (Arrrrggghhhh!)
Let it rain. All day long. I don't mind. It kind of suits. I wish I didn't have to go anywhere. I'd like to just stay at home and listen all day to gregorian chanting with my eyes closed, or...
It just depends from the person and the situation. Some people need to be cheered up. Some people need to hear something uplifting. Some people need a gentle kick in the ass. Some people need...
I hate depression. It takes away the best people around me. It's like trying to conquer a black hole.
The truth. That's the nature of things and it is all fine just as it is. It is often cruel but also pretty elegant. What does that say to you?
I got out of home to buy something to eat. I approached the crosswalk. - AAAAAAAHHHDEEEDEEEDEEEHAAAAA!!! - screamed a little boy held tightly by the hand, so he wouldn't get on the street. -...
Everything might be a double-edged blade. Our every action (worth mentioning that the lack of action is, in fact, an action too) has it's good and bad consequences and the responsibility is on our...
An abusive relationship was the cause. Worn out to the core and on the edge of self-destruction, I finally doorslammed this person. The love of my life. Then I withdrew. A few months later I started...
You're welcome. I'm sorry. Sometimes it's simply depressing, isn't it? I think that since it's a matter of my nature it's kind of inevitable. It happened. It happens. It will happen. I'm just...
An article about delayed emotional response to social situations. Story of my life. It got better since I started with the mindful approach to everything, though.
There's a perfect order in the fridge with reagents and rapid tests right now. Everything just makes sense. There's no need to dig through everything and waste time anymore. Also, it's finally...
I shoudn't be ashamed of the feelings that I expressed (oh my god, I did it, what was I thinking?!), even if it won't be accepted, should I?... Yet inside I'm all like ugh... sorry, maybe I should...
The moment I saw this person, I knew that we'll get along, even if he doesn't have the sympathy of the others in the workplace. What can I say? He got my attention. I observed him and interacted...
Rarely asking for information - I always do my own research. But what if I need rumours, impressions and other people's experiences? It's different when people just talk to me. It kind of happens...
Not enough time to recharge. Always with some other people around. Exhaustion makes me rude this time. Not that I express it very much - I keep my mouth shut, because I know that otherwise I'd...
I would never dare to design such a test and hurt anyone like this. Personally, I see it as selfish - treating people like lab rats. However, there was a time in my life when I've had a wish of...
This is where I'm getting back to myself. 477818 477826 477834
I can't feel a thing. (Of course it's not the truth. It's just that suddenly I am *snap of fingers* disconnected). I don't even feel like a person. Guess that too much is happening in my...
Reading some quotes. When a person tells you that you hurt them, you don’t get to decide that you didn’t. — Louis C.K. That's a good one.
Sometimes I wish I could have an invisible cloak that reflects or filters everything harmful that comes from the others. Even the best people have such days when they're spreading spikes around. I'm...
Starting over again. Moving out by the sea. I'm sitting surrounded by my life in suitcases.
I freakin' doorslammed my job today. And we are never ever ever getting back together. Like... ever. (Whatever, I LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT) (Sorry). (Lol).
Why did I buy so many books again? (But they're not so easy to find. And cheap. Rare and cheap simultaneously, really. How could I leave such books? They've been waiting for me. That's obvious...
“My life amounts to no more than one drop in a limitless ocean. Yet what is any ocean, but a multitude of drops?” - Cloud Atlas
Hero (2002) Visually stunning philosophical masterpiece with fighting sequences.
Who are you? I see it as making a choice: define who you are and divide it from who you are not, and therefore create a standard that you have to reach, in order to keep on being who you are... or...
I haven't seen you, so it might be a bad shot, but from what I know some of the people are presenting a kind of a reversed expression, when it comes to uncomfortable feelings. They want to keep it...
I wish I could meet someone face to face, say everything to this person - and to be heard but not to be judged. (Not someone specific - just someone that I'd feel comfortable to talk to). This is...
I wouldn't call it fascination, because this word just doesn't fit (it has an emotional appeal), nevertheless I'm interested in all shades of human and inhuman (simplification). I want to know it...
Recovery is a path. It's a process. It happens step by step and there's no wrong way, or a specific amount of time. Progress happens when we are learning to let go. To let go doesn't mean to...
I miss company. It's been a while. I'm not around people, but I'm thinking about them a lot. It would be nice to see a real person instead. It gets a llittle scary after spending too much time alone,...
From another thread because I don't want to make an offtop: It made me laugh. I was with my sister outside of the train station at Monday and it started to rain, so I put up an umbrella...
Hannibal renewal. And some more sleep.
It's what I've been made of. It has to be on my own terms and/or (depends from a moment) it requires an intimate bond. Otherwise it's just uncomfortable. Sadly, when it's not so easy avoid it,...
Last Time when I checked Lars von Trier awkwardly said that he understands him and he sympathizes with him a little bit. I'd say - this is what happens when a person doesn't go out very much. It...
It's never nice to experience a door slam. Or righteous anger (for example). Not to mention the company of an unhealthy INFJ... All sorts of personal resentments are understandable. Every path of...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E4povfmX144 A lot.
Somebody offered me a friendship in return and I just realized that I wasn't expecting this, and I'm genuinely surprised. Plus - I don't feel safe like this. I got used to one-sided things. I...
Nymphomaniac again. But Director's Cut this time. Apart from the controversy (similar thing happened to another brilliant movie Shame - it's like some people just can't get over sex :P) it was a...
I like to read about such things so, so much. I know a few places inside of my mind and they all have some purpose, but the dearest one is an empty beach during a particularly windy day. It's not...
Setting boundaries is important. There are things that we can do, things that we shouldn't do (because they need to be done by the other person) and the things that nobody can do. We can't fix...
We're tea outcast. But I guess it's worth it - it's like a poetry written for taste buds. Cheers!
I'm drinking English Breakfast with milk and I wonder how far from me is the next person with a similar preference for tea.
The mind is reviewing and analyzing the mistake, so it wouldn't happen again. If it's a loop beyond your control, it's wearing you out, and you find it hard to relax - you might be experiencing...
What is a dumb way you've hurt yourself? When I was a kid I followed a butterfly. It was extraordinary, orange-blue... Really beautiful. I kept my eyes fixed on it and I didn't notice a hole in...
I'm rarely hungry. It's like I can't feel it. Mostly I eat just because I know that I have to. Out of duty. And when the others around me are eating. A bit of stress, a problem to solve, something...'
