'Dearest Almighty Universe, Seriously, wtf?!? Why must you always toy with my feelings? Are you trying to push me off the edge? Bc I'm already walking on it. I HATE you with a passion. Me
I'm feeling really anxious about returning to the social media world after a long absence. Unfortunately, it's the only way to contact certain people because I don't have any other way to contact...
Believe me...I can relate. Don't worry, enlightenment will come.
Your personality type: Peacemaker (VOI-S) ...
Deep down inside, I just know that we will meet again. To be honest, I absolutely don't want to see you again, but I intuitively know that it's not over between us. And if I don't see you again in...
Lately Ix92ve become obsessed with personal finance. I have my ESTP friend to thank for bringing to light the importance of being financially smart. I donx92t really need a lot of money, just enough to...
Note to self: Don't fantasize about the next potential mate you meet. Be more realistic this time. Accept what is.
Emotionally numb. Tired of feeling.
These past couple of months I have been experiencing synchronicity in the form of numbers, particularly 1:11, 11:11, 2:22, and 4:44. Just today I saw 111 three times. Patiently waiting for...
I'm sad, but I have to survive.
Infp!
I tried it once. We hit it off pretty well via text for a month. He led me on and made me think there was something there. He even said he liked me. Then when we finally met...I thought our meeting...
I sent you a long-ish message on New Year's Eve meant as somewhat of a farewell. However, you only took it as a simple New Year's greeting, as all I received was a short thank you for my kind...
At the end of the day, I'm the delusional fool who ends up suffering. Nice people finish last.
If I know what to do and I've done it before, then why is it more difficult this time around? Letting go...
I used too much of my heart recently and yes, I did feel worthless. But when I also use too much of my head, I also feel worthless. :(
I normally don't like crowds, but it felt nice to be walking around in the city tonight. I enjoy the feeling of anonymity; the chances of running into a familiar face and being forced to have small...
Why is it that whenever I'm with you, my sorrows melt away? However, when we finally part ways, my tears can't stop falling? Yes, you just want to be friends. I get it. I'm trying to accept...
Geez..that's a loooooong time. lol It took me at least 5 years to get over someone I was never even with. So maybe for me, 750 years?? :laughing:
How long more until I can get over this heartache?? Hit me with amnesia so I could purge 30 years worth of memories from my life. Or turn me into one of those Cybermen from Doctor Who.
So I accidentally forgot my smartphone in my work vehicle at my office today. My Supervisor had already left with the keys by the time I realized it, plus I didn't have his personal contact info to...
In the past few weeks there hasn't been a day that I didn't shed a tear... I think it's time to regain my sense of rationality and rebuild my walls...
Ok, so maybe I overreacted without knowing the whole story. After all, sometimes I can't help but think the worst of a situation. However, now I realize more and more that maybe it IS time to let go....
So I guess this is it then? I've just wasted all my time on you once again. :( Why does this always happen to me? No matter what I do, it seems the same patterns always repeats itself. What wrong...
I never thought that day would come when a person becomes my drug...when a dose of him brings me to an amazing high, and the absence of him puts me into the most unbearable state of withdrawal.
Dear Cosmos, I see a trend. Every time I get my hopes up you always seem to find a way to bring them down. I'm not going to fall for it this time.
I will never forget the very first time I felt alone and misunderstood...the very first time I felt like I never truly belonged in this world. I was only five then and now I'm thirty. ...
Thank you for your support and advice, Monsieur Melancholy. I'm indeed taking on too much at once and I think I need to find a way to untangle myself. Went for a walk at the park today and that...
I reached the threshold and broke down in tears again tonight. I hate feeling this way! For once I'd like to rid myself of all emotion.
Why can't I, just for once, be optimistic and allow myself to be happy??
Annoyed at myself for worrying about people who don't even give a sh*t about me.
INTP for me. I also remember testing ISFJ when I was younger.
I must be a fool for getting all worked up over you. You probably only see me as a temporary plaything to be discarded as soon as you grow bored. The emotional and spiritual connection is...
After an amazing month full of adventure, I'm back to reality. I really don't want to be here. :( Doctor Who, will you whisk me away to another world?
You took the words right out of my mouth. I was going to write the same thing.
I went for the sole purpose of learning and improving my skills, but had to put myself through very uncomfortable social situations. I tried to be more social by joining in, but in the end I failed. ...
I think may I have lost my voice now but I felt immediate relief after a good scream. I hope you felt the pain in my rage.
Thanks for your comment CircusCat! I totally agree. Often I'm afraid to express my emotions for fear they might react that way. And sometimes I feel that they just don't want to hear what I have to...
Rarely do I open up to people, but every time I do I always feel like I'm a nuisance to them. :(
So you're back in town for a short time and we're finally going to have that date we never had so many years ago. To be honest, while you may sound excited, I just really want to get this over with...
I highly recommend this book A Mind For Numbers: How to Excel at Math and Sciences(Even if you flunked Algebra)* by Barbara Oakley. The author herself struggled with math in her school years but...
I feel awful for feeling this way about you. I thought I would be happy. After all, I gave you all the encouragement to break out of your shell in order to set out on an incredible journey. But...
My inner world is dark at the moment. However, without dark there would be no light. I just need to find the light switch somewhere in there.
90% of my life I've had my hair long - shoulder length to mid-back. Personally, I just find longer hair easier to manage because I can easily tie it in a ponytail. I think I've had my hair above...
This emotional pain and anger I feel....will it ever go away?? Happiness comes from within I tell myself but....
I tend to prefer guys closer to my age, ranging up to 5 years younger or 5 years older. As I'm getting older though, I don't mind guys up to 10 years older. But there's just no way I would date...
I'm here thinking about all the friends I cut ties with. I know it's partly my fault for pushing them away, but if all I feel is sadness when I think of them then it's all for the better. I'm...
I'm not as strong as other people imagine me to be. Truth is...I've fallen into a hole I don't think I can ever climb out of. :(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G6aBAQsq5jI I <3 Taka!! :th_love:
Funny...just moments ago I was writing in my private journal about how I feel like I'm falling back into an existential depressive state. Then I logged on to PerC and saw this post. Existential...'
