'I used to think that maturity was burning bridges without a second thought. I'm better off without you, enjoy your island. Then, I thought that maturity was handing someone else the match, watching...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=29&v=MuvwPZ8brIs
Like offering you a fist bump (do people still fist bump?). Carry on, fellow pantless poster!
People spend a lot of time talking about things that changed them. It made me a different person. It made me a better person. I've never been the same. Do we change, or does the lens...
Right now is one of those rare times when the various parts of me- memories, worries, goals, doubts, dreams- aren't debating each other, vying for ultimate control. Storms rage outside, and inside I...
I fully intend to have coffee and cake for brunch this morning. It's going to be excellent.
I can really identify with this. The following is just my experience, and certainly not advice that you have to take. I've found that when I feel trapped and out of realistic options, picking a...
I've decided that I need to make more of an effort to spend time on self expression and interaction with other people, both in real life and online. Meeting goals and investing in a career is...
I used to feel like I was a soft fragile thing curled into the contours of my shell. Hard on the outside, soft and warm inside and curled into the contours of myself. Now I feel full of the echoes...
I haven't stopped by perc for quite some time. I reread my PMs from years ago, and they made me smile. It's amazing the kind of impact that others can unexpectedly make on your life when the going...
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm looking for answers, or if I'm looking for questions that justify the answers that I've already picked. I struggle with this a lot. We all have ideas of the kind of...
just a letter. i find myself thinking about you again. i knew you weren't a part of my life anymore, of course, but the imperceptible shift from absent to history still catches me off guard...
I'm bad at letting go. I'm good at reasons, and logic, and distance; but the sum of those things is denial, not release.
I feel like people change enough every three years that reconnecting with them is almost like meeting a completely different person. It's fascinating, it's scary (both because it raises a lot of...
i'm almost exclusively focused on the future, but every once in a while it's good to look back. for context, for enlightenment, for the sake of humility, for a good laugh. i'm feeling strangely...
Maybe it's just the rainy Sunday evening that's doing it to me, but tonight I feel a little bit pinned under the weight of the monotony of life. (People say that they just want you to be happy--...
If some giant (and, I suppose, hopefully benevolent) force came and plucked me out of my circumstance and worries and daily routine, dusted me off, and stuck me in a cool dark vacuum, just me and my...
I need a brain dump. There are members of my husband's family that don't care for me. Any time that I'm around them, I feel real anxiety that I don't experience in any other part of life. My...
I did this same exact thing, only I was the horrible American cheering for Canada. Can't root against Patrice Bergeron! At least we canceled each other out, right? :)
Sometimes someone says something, I read something, I hear a song, and I can feel the person that I used to be. I feel the way that I used to feel. It's like there's a buzzing channel of...
World wise, world weary, a girl stands on the edge of a dark street corner, hand casually in a pocket, worn eyes narrowed just to the point of being able to see through the shadows on the other side...
Something I wish I'd learned sooner- Never become involved with someone who always has reasons why everything is someone else's fault. Someday, you'll find yourself painted as their villain as...
Exactly. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gnf2J-V_OWA
I think that sometimes you only find the answer that you need when you're in search of the answer to the (different) question that you think you need. It's unsettling. How can you ever be certain...
at this point, life has mostly succeeded in beating the idealism out of me with a jackhammer. even so, it's undeniable that i've never been able to give myself wholly to the people who have wanted...
I just heard multiple Linkin Park songs on my usual morning drive. Every radio station I switched to- Linkin Park. Oh radio gods, what message are you trying to impart? I can only assume that it's...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GRBrHTerf0 Anything other than yes is no Anything other than stay is go Anything less than I love you is lying
I spend so much time doing things to prepare for the future. I put off action in relationships to keep from damaging the future's potential, I agonize over life decisions because of the future, I'm...
I just realized that I had 666 posts in the INFP thread. Here's #667. Now if lightning strikes me, at least I won't have my 666 INFP posts to blame. ;)
i miss late night quiet. i need time to ask questions to frame my life and tie up loose ends and figure out what's important to me. i need time for silence and feelings and to exist without a...
Prozac Nation The Virgin Suicides
Some days peace seems a little optimistic, so I just aim for indifference instead. :)
it's been a heavy couple of weeks, culminating in an especially heavy evening. sometimes, death seems to be everywhere. after the death of a friend's father and the death of a relative's father,...
funerals and memorial services leave me shaken. i don't think it's as much because of death itself as that it is an uncomfortable exhibition of the way that people deal with death. people that i...
it's hard to be a space filler. sometimes i still feel hollowed out, empty, lacking.
some days i really wonder if the average person lies more than they tell the truth.
it's a crisp, fall-like day in my little corner of the world. the weather used to make me miss someone, but at some point i realized that what i was actually missing was the person that he used to...
I know what they say about spilled milk, but I think that crying is a totally acceptable response to spilled coffee (particularly when the spilled coffee was also the last coffee in the house).
Never enough sleep!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pyue2N1XZ0M
I don't know if i'm coming or going. I always thought that the best way through the tough stuff in life was to select and charge one door and smash it down, no matter how bruised it left me. ...
I've been feeling this same way recently.
I'm having trouble caring, which I realize is always a bad sign for me. I think I just get into these spots where I figure out that I can't ever make something the way that I want it to be, and the...
I think it's easier to be sad in the middle of the night. It's a more fluid kind of sad- deep and terrible, maybe, but authentic and unpretentious; an aching, brave, bitter flavor of loneliness that...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qN1rpYIjdNA this time i'm not leaving without you.
Yes, this! I've never heard it articulated quite like this before, but I guess I'm in this state almost constantly- disappointment in the frailty of human emotion.
When I realize that I no longer care about someone who used to be important to me, it troubles me. It makes me feel inauthentic. It doesn't seem fair or right to care about someone and then to be...
“It’s the only way to leave. ‘I don’t love you anymore. Goodbye.’” “Supposing you do still love them?” “You don’t leave.” -- Closer
I have a lot of hard days that make me really question my abilities as a mom, friend, and person in general. Today, the stars have aligned. I love my kids and I can tell they love me, I've helped...
it's strange how some relationships deteriorate so easily even after years of peaceful interaction and shared experiences, while some relationships are extremely rocky but just as difficult to really...'
