'I've become a lot more productive this past year, more disciplined. I made going to the gym a new routine, which I thought I never would have actually started doing, but it's been good for me,...
Biochemistry. I have about a year (and possibly a half) left. I wish I had explored more options before settling into it. I don't necessarily hate it, but I hate the prospective work I would be...
Does anyone else ever just feel not... there? I don't know how to articulate it, but I've come to realize that for the past couple years of my life, I've spent much of it not even seemingly...
Just absolutely tired of the constant routine of my daily life, even though attempting to even change it is anxiety-provoking enough that I'm willing to continue with the monotony.
I think hands down one of the worst things about having AvPD/social anxiety is that, my fear of reaching out, my fear of being noticed or getting involved in things, has made me a very forgettable...
Shinji Ikari from Neon Genesis Evangelion is probably my most related character, especially with his struggles revolving around his seemingly avoidant personality.
The societal stigmas of being past a certain age and not having complete independence. Fuck being shamed for being in my early 20s and not out of the house yet - I'm not about to sign up to...
I'm stuck between downtown of a major city in a nice apartment/flat/suite and rustic mountain cabin because both of them sound ideal given my interests. Both if possible.
I spend day in and day out alone, and it's really starting to take its toll on me. I wish there were things I could do to meet new people, but it's very difficult and being socially anxious on top...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?&v=Bu2HuQXCw9c
I've done it unintentionally but I'm not the most socially conscious. If I'm angry, I'm more prone to highlighting the negatives about someone and roasting them but I have to dial it back.
Got an interview for a bioinformatics position I applied to at a research institution on my campus. :)
I've gotten into hiking recently, since I was kind of 'forced' to for the student I'm doing work for, but I've seen so many beautiful places and have come across the most amazing, 'isolated' spots...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aVfWx9282y0
Interested in what the next book will be.
Not really into the gaudiness of pride. Feel disconnected from the community as a whole too.
Pride is next weekend in my city but I'm debating whether or not I want to go because of social anxiety, and I generally don't feel like I fit in with the LGBT 'community' at all anyway.
So tired and burnt out in general on everything. I still care but I wish I didn't sometimes. I just want to sleep.
I struggle with these feelings a lot because I constantly crave validation from other people, and I hate being ignored. And my life is generally pretty lonely, so it's hard for me to just... not...
Yeah, I've been told I come across as an asshole because I'm reserved and have a terrible case of resting bitch face. I'm working on not coming across so cold, but it's hard when you're socially...
I want to strive to be a better person or continue to work on myself, but I'm getting so tired. It takes so much effort, and it hurts to not really notice much progress, or to not really be noticed...
The prospect of using online apps for the sake of dating unnerves me, and I really wish it weren't the 'standard' when it comes to meeting people. :/
I have a year and a half left of university and then I'm finally out. About time. :frustrating:
I want to break down but I can't.
It's so difficult to realize how unhealthy a situation or relationship is until you're out of it. I don't know how to explain it exactly, but these past few months I've felt less unstable, uncertain,...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5h0qHwNrHk
I feel disconnected from this place and it sucks. I hardly ever think about PerC anymore but I've never felt like I belonged in any sense. I usually just stay on the sidelines, watching others...
I turned 21 a few days ago and I feel so behind in life. I know that everyone progresses at their own pace, but it's frustrating to be stuck here with no way out until I manage to accomplish the...
I wish I had more ambition to complete/do things I want to do.
I've been through hell but these past few weeks have really tested my perception of what hell actually is.
I don't want to be invisible, I want to be heard and given attention *avoids everything* :)
If you're always worried about crushing the ants beneath you, then you won't be able to walk.
Spending all of my time alone is starting to really wear down on me.
I'm a bicyclist who just got his driver's license. I feel like getting back on my bike now that that's done and over with. :P
Same case for me. I work in a semi-professional office and I'm also working on my research, and so often do I get coworkers/others asking me for help on something, alluding to the fact that I appear...
Depends on how you define 'fun'. I consider philosophy and attempting to search for meaning and making my life seem worth it my priority, which is 'fun' to me, but I don't live entirely...
I spend day in and day out alone and it's wearing at me, but I don't know how to change it. I don't know how to get close to people. I'm tired of feeling depressed at the end of the day, looking back...
I want to study more languages (specifically Latin) so I found an Oxford Latin dictionary at a used bookstore, but I also got carried away and picked up a Finnish one, too...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jo4K7v8zQ9o Listened to this last night too while I was writing and drawing. I don't really care for vaporwave 'culture' but there's some great mixes out there.
Used to get called 'fag' a lot. This was before I knew I was bisexual or really said anything about sexuality, I was just a quiet, reserved boy who loved to write and read, which bullies deemed as...
I cried today for the first time in a while, I just wish I didn't have so much internalized shit going on about externally showing my thoughts and emotions. It generally makes me feel worse...
If their personality is strong enough that it turns into close-mindedness and an inability to take in different opinions/viewpoints, then no.
Put a new anarchy patch on my bag.
Being 5'7 I know this feeling too well, makes me hate clothes shopping >:
|I would think it's common for a Fi-dom? I don't know how to fake facial expression... All the time am I asked if 'everything's okay,' if 'i'm fine' etc.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7TupvVpxY_U
What happened to @dragthewaters ? I don't visit PerC that much anymore but this place seems way more quiet / inactive than it used to be.
Think I'm single now, or have been. What a fucking whirlwind. Despite not wanting to talk to me, he continues to remain present - hasn't done anything like removing me from friends lists, such and...
The crushing weight of the world is on my shoulders and I'm having one hell of a time existing right now, that's for sure.'
