I used to care .. but now I have resigned to the fact that the boulder is already rolling and there isn't much we can do about it. Collectively the entire planet would have to agree to save the...
Exceedingly gay INFP here, reporting for duty.
I find it strange to think that irregardless of whether we take action or not, a change will eventually arrive - for better or for worse. I suppose it is why people talk about taking life by the...
Why is it that 'be positive' can seem like such an idiotic stance to take on the world, whilst, being bitter and cynical can be so attractive? There are so many situations in life that could have...
I think one of our problems is that we prefer to think about things, rather than take action. This is in fact, becoming a really big problem in my life. I have stuck myself in a job that I hate, yet...
I feel so frustrated. I told somebody how I was feeling today and they replied with 'Snap out of it!!!'. Well maybe don't ask people how they are feeling if you don't want to hear the truth. ...
I just walked out of my job, literally. I'm feeling rather terrified now .. but hopefully the terror will be the driving force to finding another one as soon as possible. It was probably a stupid,...
I had a child. His name was Arthur. I neglected him, so he got taken away from me by Child Protection. He is now 24 years of age and still residing with his foster parent. He is not a kind man;...
The man I'm dating has accused me of not caring about him, because I didn't wish him happy birthday. I don't care for him and I don't care that it was his birthday. And the cold fact has disturbed...
My compass of desire points in a bad direction. It points me to a place where I know that the happiness will only be superfluous when I get there. It will cause some definite turmoil and ... probably...
Whenever I sit down and think about consequence, a very ugly can of worms is opened. I wonder how detrimental my ignorance of this can of worms will be to my future .. but not just to my future, to...
Something that I struggle with as a gay person, is when I look at a man with qualities I find attractive - I don't know whether I want him or whether I want to BE him. Do or CAN straight people...
I am often acutely aware when something isn't good for me. It might not be obvious from the outset, but my gut just says 'It won't make you happy in the end'. As much as my gut can squirm around in...
I did a really stupid thing yesterday. I was feeling really depressed and hopeless ... and because I was feeling depressed and hopeless, I didn't take my medicine - ON PURPOSE. I don't know what...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Y85otqcPak&t=613s Animal crossing ... It soothes me and reminds me that I'm just a simple, wandering fool in all my small bubble of existence. :-)
So something very stressful happened to me when I was walking my dog this evening. We were walking on a fenced off, muddy little path off the side of a big empty field. It was cold, completely...
Stay Up Late. Diarrhoea or Constipation - for the rest of your life?
Stay Up Late. Diarrhoea or Constipation - for the rest of your life?
I'm back. Gosh, it must have been well over a year since I was last here. How things have changed. My life has been spun a full 360 degrees. I like to believe I gave the wheel the initial push .. but...
I know its a silly and some what ironic question, since no matter what - we just simply always 'are'. The question stemmed from seeing a friend who I haven't seen for a while. She reminds me of a...
Yes, yes and yes. I felt physically sick after speaking from my Father on the phone today. I put the phone down and then blooded to my head. My body reacts as if I have suddenly been burnt and all I...
I really, really hate the expression 'storm in a teacup' - but its the perfect metaphor for my brain today. My mind is the tea cup. Cutting up mushrooms to make a soup, I suddenly froze and...
I am so terribly anxious I feel like I could actually die. Burning forehead, sweating ...... Tonight I'm meeting somebody I swore I would never see again. GRR.
I am taking REALLY small steps this year. They are so tiny but very slowly I'm chipping away at recovering. For example - yes, I'm still behaving like a raging sex addict and playing various...
I deserved that.
Update : The sex was fine. I haven't had sex without drugs for a long time - so it felt extremely grounded and I had to rely on my mind to relax my body. Like everything in my life, the anticipation...
Just to snow ball on my last post and prove that I am the epitome of gay stereotype - I'm going to take a quote from Bridesmaids about how I feel at this second : ''I think you'd just feel better...
Its nice to know that I'm not the only one who gets anxious before sex ... but if I were to be drunk every time? I'd have to get drunk once a week. Haha. I wish the brain were like a computer and you...
Flight and fight response SUCKS if you're an anxious gay man, about to have sex. Since taking anti-depressants, my flight and fight response is less frequent ... but when it IS there, the anxiety...
I want to recover but some times I'm not sure what I'm recovering from. Does that make any sense? I some times can't tell the difference between living recklessly and having a suicidal ideation. ...
I love watching the internet blow up. Especially when you're sitting on the side, watching the commotion and not knowing what to think. Maybe sitting on the fence isn't a place of conviction, but I'm...
One day, I want to be able to buy simple things without having to spend HOURS analysing. ''Okay, so if I buy this book ... that means I won't have enough money to get on the train for a week ......
I was really bored earlier, so I decided to sign up to Pottermore. Why not? I wanted to know what house the Sorting Hat would put me in. One of the questions in the assessment really irked me....
Aww, what a lovely thing to say :-D Thank you so much. I'm glad that I have returned with a much better mind set. I felt so horrible and dull when I came here to inject my angst. So thank you. It...
Let us know how it goes. I love anything to do with piercings, having four myself. Might I just say - I expect you'll find that the anticipation of getting your industrial piercing will be much worse...
Something that really irritates me about being alive today, is the fact that it is SO difficult to cut dangerous people from your life! I'm not a very strong person in certain respects - for...
About two weeks ago, I was preparing to walk out into the cold, wet English winter when it occurred to me how much I detest my coat. Obligated to wear it, to keep warm - it is essentially a...
I have trained myself to respond to sincere complements with a good, simple, slightly cold ''Thank you''. I become very awkward and peculiar when I am being complemented, especially if the complement...
I don't like cats but cat's like me. Its a horrible life. I tend to feel that cats are manipulative, selfish, hedonists which are generally over rated. My dog however? I love how robust, playful,...
I'm back! I took an accidental break from the internet, after I broke my computer by accident and I destroyed my phone (which was definitely NOT an accident). On my break I read a tonne of books; my...
I broke and I said to my brothers, 'can you stop talking so loudly, I'm trying to sleep'. They were like ... just shut the door (as in, fully shut it) MY DOOR ISN'T MADE OF SOLID WOOD. IT...
No, you sound like a genius. I think that is part of the reason why New Year's eve can just leave us feeling confused and alienated, we know what we are ''supposed'' to be feeling - but we don't feel...
I think I'd rather go to the Dentist than a noisy night club too, at least with the dentist you can have some one on one intimacy before he plucks your teeth out. :-) What I really meant to say...
I'd be curious to know what other INFP's think about New Year's Eve and whether or not they celebrate. Personally, I tend to feel a little sad on New Year's because I feel like I'm missing out on...
I keep having this recurring thought this week, that I'm both a child and a abusive parent. I need to call social services and have myself taken away from myself. Man, being 23 is not fun. I feel...
When I first read the title of the thread, I thought you meant actual, physical door slamming - which is something I do A LOT when I'm angry. I thought 'What, that's an INFP thing?!' and rushed over...
For some reason, the word 'worst' brings to mind some really mean and unnecessary connotations. This thread isn't one I'm particularly enjoying. I don't think its about who is the worst but who is...
The title of your thread caught my eye and I clicked on it in a heart beat. A few years ago, I think I used to behave in a similar way to your sister and even today, there are occasions where I might...
I want to know why I feel like a better person when I am a clean person. There is that old adage 'Cleanliness is next to Godliness', which reminds me of my religious upbringing as a closeted...
Last night I had a dream that I was building a tiny little home out of mud. It consisted of one room and the whole structure was a small, perfectly shaped little dome. Inside, there was just enough...
